hai guys so ni just gambaran saje hehe. btw! pew pew now at 4:26 pm im writing about rgo family. yep all of this started by last year on october, my special one and i were creating a clan in pubg. our clan where im the leader and he is the co-leader. we all started from bottom. first guy that entered our clan called mohamed and he's from arab i guess i dont know. but anyway, there are some guys that very closed to us. first of all RGO MOON. she is th most loveliest person eva and she's my bestfriend since form 1 !. the second one is the youngest in the clan and he is RGO QORNETO. his personality are easy to be socialize with. so senang nak dekat sebab dia sendiri dah sporting habis! how we all met are actually from sembang tempatan where all random person can chat there and ask us to be invited or joined our game. that time moon and me were searching in there and suddenly he entered the lobby and he used "kaw kaw" word and made us laugh out loud.we were closed since then. ! then we met rgo datin! he's a boy actually then rgo zedion and lastly rgo jango! these 6 people including my special one really closed until we made a awhatsapp group called 'RGO FAMILIA"! we're not only play games tho. we also tell our own stories like sesi luahan gitu and will give advices to each other. srsly i never thought that we will get really closed like this. like we had our first meeting by seing each other face at discord tho ! only from that platform since we all lived far from each other. just i dedicate this post is actually to let out my appreciation to u all for giving me such a big happiness in my life. like i treasure u all like my own family. u all are the second lah after my family! thank you u guys ! i love u all and i hope our friendship will last forever ! and for my special one.. thank you cause trusting me dalam bergaul dengan orang and try to blend in with them for me. i love u the most !.
-xoxo RGO SHORA
pew pew hi guys! now at 7:12 pm. im writing about freedom. now im at hospital sebab kene teman kakak aku tak sihat. so i would like to share something that happened in my life and it related to our topic for today. so basically i really want freedom. its not like bebas tak tentu hala. its just i can do something that i want but still ada batasan. and its really made me like betul2 nak sampai benda tu bawak gaduh antara aku ngn my special one. so yesterday we had the biggest arguement i guess sebab dia sampai datang face to face untuk bincang semua. so macam kiteorang gaduh and almost break up just because of the freedom that i want. but at last, we fight for each other and try to hold onto our relationship. after that i clear things up with him. he asked me about what should he do and what do i want him to do. then i said everything i want. remember guys. communication is a key to everything. if u guys dont communicate with your partners or even family, they will never understand you. so conclusion is. jangan bagi korang bergaduh tu lama sangat sampai terbawa ke hari seterusnya. sebab dia akan affect korang punye hari tau. so better to settle things the same day u guys fought. thats all from me.
-xoxo D
now at 8:23 pm, hi dearself.. i got a question for you.. why do u exist when u cant even be yourself and cant make your parents proud of you? why do you even exist when all the good things u did no one care.. why do u exist when everybody just see your bad doing?.. why do u even exist when your parents just want other siblings be with them and not u.. why do u exist when u are really weak to face the cruel world?..why do u exist when u always feel empty.. why do u exist when u always think that u shouldnt be born.. why do u exist when u dont know what u lived for.. why do u exist when u just a burden.. answer me dearself.. answer me
Hye fellas ! now at 8:01 pm im writing about my day today. i just took a bath guys woo! XD okay back to the topic. so today im going for work like usual. im working at pharmacy so basically we cannot close it like other store ! but damn people still stubborn and want to go out from their house. guys look, the goverment ask us to stay at home to make you safe and not get infected by the covid-19. so please stay at home and dont make us yang kene kerja ni berjangkit pulak aiyoo.. duduk rumah diam2 kemas rumah ke main game ke lagi bagus. ni nak merayau sana sini kang tak pasal pasal kene lockdown btul2 like no one can be outside and even post laju ke tempat makan ke klinik ke kene tutup. ha time tu padan la muka tak dapat nak cari makan dah .. so my day today kinda okay until lah time aku nak otw balik time dalam kereta. aku just baru turun dari mrt and my mom kinda early today so masuk la dalam kete. tengok2 ade dalam group cakap pasal mane price tag tempat shelf aku,. aku cakap lah aku dah bagi kat one of the staff ni untuk tolong aku susun. and then dia kata aku x bagitau and kesian kat another staff kene buatkan balik.. sedangkan staff tu nampak aku tengah gunting aku punye price tag untuk susun . and aku mintak tolong dia at the first place tapi dia kate dia cashier so aku pon cam ok lah fahamlah. even bukan ramai sangat pon orang malam nnti tapi dia dh kate dia duduk cashier so aku pon oklah,. so aku mintak tolong another staff yang x buat cashier. pahtu dia mati mati nak salahkan aku kate x siap keje la ape la.. ok kau tengok eh.. aku duk susun yang ade shelf satu ni dah berterabur boss suh kemaskan okeh aku dah settle.. so time tu dah 5:30 aku balik pukul 6 sebab shift aku morning. so aku cam cepat cepat nak settlekan price tag tu atleast drg boleh tolong susunkan je aku dah potong siap2.. pon tak leh gak nak kene akuu jugak buat? sedangkan time time ni mmg takde customer weh.. mmg bullshit lah kalau alasan customer ramai. pahtu masalahnye the main problem is drg tak tanye lagi staff yang aku mintak tolong susunkan tu and then terus suh another staff buat balik price tag tu.. so sekarang ni salah aku atau salah senior staff yang tak reti nak tanye staff lain? this is my opinion lah eh.. people nowadays memang takkan nampak salah sendiri. yang dia nampak salah orang lain and dia rasa dia sorang yang betul.. i dont care if u senior staff or u even older than me. but if u dont have any respect towards each other and u dont even have the correct responsibility, u have no right to get my respect.. tolonglah.. dah 2020 dah.. fikiran tu matured sikit.. and lagi satu eh.. ni bukan untuk lari dari masalah au.. this is me who want to defend myself from the one who want to bring me down.. dia dah nampak aku gunting price label aku..and tak sampai 5 minit lepas aku habis tu aku terus tutup cashier and buat settlement sume. logic ke kalau bende tu hilang? logic ke kalau price tag tu tetibe takde? paling2 kurang pon akan ade kat bahagian2 cashier tu. sebab aku buat kerje kat situ.. and kenapa tak cari betul2 kat situ before nak buat balik price tag? see the common sense.. ni benda yang aku ajar ye.. first thing first kalau ade barang hilang cari dulu.. cari kat tempat orang tu buat keje.. second kalau tak jumpe, tanye empunye badan tu sendiri letak mana. kot2 dia lupe nak inform.. third, tanye sume staff ade tak orang ni tinggalkan keje untuk dia ke ape.. fourth baru lah kau buat balik kerje tu and marah orang yang salah.. ada faham? bukan main tuduh, main terjah, and main backup orang yang salah. dan mempersalahkan orang yang betul. aku malas nak balas lebih2 kat dalam group sebab it is not my first intention pon untuk kerja tetap sebab aku nak sambung belajar. knowledge is more important.. by knowledge lah kau boleh survive and have a lot of experience.. pengalaman memang mematangkan seseorang.. tapi pengalaman tanpa pengetahuan, tu sia-sia namanya. seolah-olah pengalaman yang kau hadap tu takde benda sebab kau tak faham ape pon kau alami. sekian luahan hati saya pada hari ini.. ade lah moral value disitu. jangan cepat giveup and defend yourself. kalau betul kau salah kau mengaku dan mintak maaf.. kalau tu bukan salah kau tapi orang lain mati2 nak salahkan kau.. bermati matilah untuk mempertahankan kebenaran diri kau.. takda yang akan mempertahankan diri kau kalau bukan diri kau sendiri. sekian.
-xoxo, D
alright now at 10:53 am and im back fellas! fiuh its good to be back again, sorry im kinda a bit busy with school and stuff.. wait... school? HAHAHAH joking.. im 18 already! well about my results its not good enough but i think its okay.. its not that excellent but yea im grateful for that.. alright back to the topic.. today i would like to share with you about giving up.. is this a post to make u give up? not at all , in fact it will make u fight and get up and never give up on anyone else.. you see, the picture said "you just can't beat the person who won't give up" yup.. alright here i go.. this world is full of bad things nowadays, bad people, bad stuff, bad influence and everything bad.. i got one story. its about a little girl always being scold by her father. and this girl always listen to their parents needs, without considering her feeling. but one day she's got out of control and have a fight with her father. its got a little chaos there, even her mother said mean things to her like "are u taking drug?" and her father said "u a hoe". just because one thing she did not follow their instruction, a lot of bad words goes to her directly to her heart until she become so heartless.. but then she start finding a man who can be a place to rely on.. to feel love, but unfortunately, she found a wrong person who she thought he's the right one.. their parents found out and ask her to break up with the guy, at first she insist to do it, but soon enough.. for once her parents were right about this boy.. and thats what made her even heartless.. trauma, trust issues, all bad things hit her.. she started to build a wall around her and make it as thick as she can so that there will be no one be able to break it.. but, this girl has been through a lot but never giveup, sometimes its good to be heartless but its also can be a nightmare if u cant control it.. all this while, she trust with her mother, but lately, her mother always talking bad about her at her sister.. maybe her mother thought that her sister can advice her.. yea she's right.. but she just make her lost trust with her mother.. u know.. old folks sometimes made mistake.. not everyone is perfect anyway... now, the girl has faced a bigger challenge since she already goes into adult hood.. work. she learnt something from someone that she really trust.. "no matter how hard your day is, no matter how hard the challenge u being through.. just don't give up.. and give up is not an option" she became stronger and mature. but she still quiet when things gone wrong.. why? its not because she cant do anything. its because she's observing and make it right by herself. isnt it selfish? nope.. u think, if u make it right publicly in this kind of world nowadays.. what will people talk about it? i doubt 98% that the people will be proud of it.. but instead, they will judge u even more.. people nowadays feel weird about people being good and feel normal when people being bad, so what can she do? be good silently, but the effect will slowly change.. and slowly changed this damn world. Now u see the power of not giving up? its beyond everything. so people out there.. no matter how hard it is. just remember there's someone out there faced more challenge even harder than u.. so just dont giveup and start to make a change to this damn world slowly.. Thats the story of this blogger. Thats all for today..
-xoxo, D
hye. now at 12:45 p.m im going to continue about the one who break my wall. i already told u a little about how i started the conversation with him. so today i would like to tell you about how we actually meet for the first time. cause all this time we just having a chat in instagram and never met each other face to face. this picture was taken on 23 september at 3:35 pm. after he gave me this birthday present. it was a week after my birthday tho hahaha.. XD.. so basically we were just talking about the cute stuff yang dijual kat getawayshopaholic.. ha terpromote sekali lah ig nye.. so ade lah a set of makeup brush ni lawa gile and saje hanta kat dia suh dia tgk cause dia mmg jenis melayan je gile2 aku sume.. then he said nak ke.. i was like NOO!! saje je bagiii.. lalala and then macam mane ntah aku suruh dia teka mana satu aku suka and kalau betul bru boleh belikan HAHAHA.. sebab choices dia memang sume aku suke cume ade satu ni je yang aku rase mmg minat gila.. and turns out he guessed it right!.. then he said okeh dah noted dah boleh beli ha dah.. i was like eeee dia niii.. then he asked for my address so i gave him cause at first i thought dia nak post je la en.. then dia nk hanta by hand.. and im kinda dare him to chat with my mom to ask for permission.. and he accept the dare and he messaged my mom! hehe.. xD.. so back to the story..on that day, that was the first time nampak dia in real life.. he's tall, but! ee he wore a maskkk! X(.. then he said to me happy belated birthday and ade la dia cakap mane boleh bagitau ! XD .. well.. dalam gambar ni.. ni baru one tingkat.. dalam box tu ada 2 tingkat.. yang ni bahagian choc.. and yg bahagian bawah tu lah ade makeup brush tu, cute socks, 2 handkerchieves, a flower and a jar of stars.. origami stars laa.. he's so nice ^^ hehe.. alright thats all for today.. byebye
-xoxo D
so today at 9:26 am. im writing about myself.. u see.. i had the experience that made me build my own wall.. freaking high okay that wall.. and i made it thicker and thicker so that nobody will be able to break it.. im suffer from depression but not so serious i guess... because when i open up to my mom.. she just said that im just stress.. em maybe she's right.. so okay forget about that.. theres some fact that made me into build the wall, first is because my loved ones before cheat on me.. like we've been together almost 5 years.. but takde jodoh hahaha.. well it made me build my wall sebab i really trust him like real hell.. but he broke me apart.. secondly because of my friend backstabbed me. ouch i know its really hurt tho.. she just backstabbed me because of a boy that she liked, like me.. like what the hell? backstabbed me just because of a boy? and forget about our friendship? really nonsense..so now my real friend that i trusted the most is from my squad which is esefefff and this one girl's pubg name is avg moon.. only them.. others its not that im not trust them but cannot trust much.. well many people have two faces nowadays.. but.. one day.. theres one man that approach me.. at my instagram.. i really dont know him..but the way he think really catch my attention.. but at first i dont give any sign of interest for him yet.. i remember one thing he did that really made me think "who this unique guy?" it is when i said im at aeon cheras selatan, HE DID GOOGLE IT ! like who dont know aeon cheras thoooo.. XD.. and then he told me that he's from abim.. and that make him MY SENIOR!.. goshh i really frustrated when i dont remember him tho.. cause im the one that will never forget the one that i know.. then he said he not really into social.. so now i get it.. then one day he said to me he likes me but he dont want to couple.. i was like "are u sure?" cause he is my senior and he probably dont know what my personality are and all stuff, then why he liked me? after that im trying my best to not put hope and build my wall thicker.. few weeks later or month i dont remember.. i think that im attach to this guy and feels like i want to trust him.. his effort, his attitude, his personality, his stories made me completely madly in love with him now.. he is the only one.. that able to Break My Wall.. S.K, i love you..
-XOXO D
hai guys so ni just gambaran saje hehe. btw! pew pew now at 4:26 pm im writing about rgo family. yep all of this started by last year on october, my special one and i were creating a clan in pubg. our clan where im the leader and he is the co-leader. we all started from bottom. first guy that entered our clan called mohamed and he's from arab i guess i dont know. but anyway, there are some guys that very closed to us. first of all RGO MOON. she is th most loveliest person eva and she's my bestfriend since form 1 !. the second one is the youngest in the clan and he is RGO QORNETO. his personality are easy to be socialize with. so senang nak dekat sebab dia sendiri dah sporting habis! how we all met are actually from sembang tempatan where all random person can chat there and ask us to be invited or joined our game. that time moon and me were searching in there and suddenly he entered the lobby and he used "kaw kaw" word and made us laugh out loud.we were closed since then. ! then we met rgo datin! he's a boy actually then rgo zedion and lastly rgo jango! these 6 people including my special one really closed until we made a awhatsapp group called 'RGO FAMILIA"! we're not only play games tho. we also tell our own stories like sesi luahan gitu and will give advices to each other. srsly i never thought that we will get really closed like this. like we had our first meeting by seing each other face at discord tho ! only from that platform since we all lived far from each other. just i dedicate this post is actually to let out my appreciation to u all for giving me such a big happiness in my life. like i treasure u all like my own family. u all are the second lah after my family! thank you u guys ! i love u all and i hope our friendship will last forever ! and for my special one.. thank you cause trusting me dalam bergaul dengan orang and try to blend in with them for me. i love u the most !. 
