hye there! now at 1:47 pm.. im writing about
my feeling actually.. yep.. yesterday.. my phone kene amik by my father.. i dont even know why.. i do all the thing they asked.. they think that i just locked my self in the room and play games or chatting with my friends.. im studying in my room okay? i have 3 papers more.. so i study.. i only switch on my phone when im bored and feel sleepy.. just to hear a song.. why they dont understand me? they are my parents but why they cant understand me? they think by taking away my phone i will be more discipline lah? no.. they wrong.. they make me dont want to do anything even more.. alright.. i know today im being a negative person cause im tired of being positive.. it hurt me so much u know? but what can i do? i just can do like what the picture said.. "im gonna smile like nothing's wrong,pretend like everything's all right,act like its all perfect,even though inside it really hurts.."
-xoxo D
haiii... ohoho... konon x on.. haktuih.. now at 1:15 pm.. today is friday and harini our first exam paper are bm and geo.. honestly bm is more difficult than geo.. uhuhu..cause the peribahasa i forgot to read it.. huwaa... its okeyh.. i just wish that i pass the subject.. or at least B.. AAMIIN.. em.. btw.. this message is for anis.. i dont know if u reading this or not.. but if u reading this.. i want u to know that i wish i can be there sitting beside you.. let u put your head on my shoulder and cry as much as u want.. i wish that i can hug u now.. stay strong baby.. and come to school... i already missing u soo much.. upbeat squad also missing you.. oh.. study jugak k? love u anis.. jinjja saranghae.. alright back to the topic.. yep im here.. so.. u know what? im awesome.. pfftt.. joke joke.. okay actually i dont know what to say.. i just want to say.. goodluck againn.. and wish me luck.. alright chau..
-xoxo D
alright guys.. i'll be off for a while cause tomorrow dah start sekolah and my final exam getting nearer so yeah.. huhuhu but sokeyh.. once i finished my exam.. i will always update hohohoho.. so keep smiling and cheerful.. take care of yourself sepanjang ketiadaan aku.. hak tuih.. ahahahaha alrightt love u muahhhhh... btw.. to pt3 candicates.. goodluck! abg mirul,uncle haziq, kak myra and uncle mirul.. goodluck okehh?? and also untuk pat gakk semuaaa.. goodluck.. i wish u the best.. u study.. u usaha.. in shaa Allah boleh... alrightt..? chauuu
-xoxo D
thanks mom cause brought me and qina swimming and ioi.. that vanilla blended is awesome! ahahah.. sebab time ni tengah haus.. kalau tengah haus ke lapar ke everything memang sedap je la... the manequinn nak pose gak.. kui3.. yeah im wearing shawl.. actually i dont like to wear shawl cause cam make my face lagi nampak bulat.. but today it's kinda okay so.. pakai je ler.. alright thats all.. chau..
-xoxo D
now at 2:25 pm.. jiwang sikit eh harini... ahaha.. alright.. like that picture said.. have you ever loved somebody so much that it made you cry? have i? yes i have.. crying because he's so close with other girl.. pffttt... sometimes i feel like i want to move on from liking him but.. i just cant.. pfftt.. everytime when he talked to me i was like.. "aku tarik balik ape aku cakap" ahahahahha.. but yeah.. i dont want to over reacted first cause im still study and will have some bigger exam like pt3 and spm.. so i guess i just want to keep this feeling by myself.. my mom said.. its okay to have a boyrfriend as long as i dont bring the lovey lovey thing into my studies.. cause it will make me not foccus in class.. but actually better x yah ade.. but depends.. if u can handle it go ahead.. but my advice.. choose the right person.. dont choose a wrong person.. u might get hurt by them.. love someone that love u more than u love them.. if your love are more than their love towards you.. they might be cheated on your back.. its better to have someone that want u.. not u want them.. or u will regret it.. and try to be the best for your partner.. once they bored.. they will leave.. try to understand each other.. try to trust each other.. try to be honest with your partner.. cause love is nothing without trusting,understanding,honesty and loyalty.. but!.. for girls.. cause pempuan ni hati lembut right.. so i give an advice especially for you girls.. for the one who is your first time being in a relationship.. dont give all of your heart.. if u give all.. im scared it will hurt you.. cause u will not be able to let go of your partner if they leave you.. like i said tadi.. let your partner love u more than you love them.. but.. kalau dah dapat partner yang caring about you.. sanggup sacrifice anything just for you.. try to appreciate them.. susah nak dapat someone like betul2 caring about u.. betul2 love u with all of their heart.. so once u get them.. be loyal.. i tell u what.. paras rupa is not important.. the most important is.. the way they treated u.. oklah.. kite letak paras rupe nombor dua lah.. since sekarang memang orang nak pempuan yang lawa lawa and laki yg hencem hencem en.. ahahha.. but.. u have to be careful okeyh.. cause.. sometimes there will be some reason why they want u.. either they want to love u and take care of you.. or they just want to use you for something.. so u have to be smart ok? but the best thing is.. focus first for your studies.. jodoh akan datang kemudian... okeyh.. chauu..
-xoxo D
up beat squad.. formed since last year.. but the title baru official this year.. ahaha.. yeah.. we are 7 girls.. have different personalities... wawa is kind,girly but..! girly2 pon.. kalau marah jangan cakap ah.. kui3.. wawa i love her style.. her favourite colour is pink.. dulu moto dia #wawareda now.. x de dah reda reda.. balas balik punye ahahha.. actually i knew her since kindergarten.. and i met her again in standard 6 at SRADN.. then we start to be closed since form 1.. kalau duduk dengan dia.. memang asyik gelak je.. hati dia lembut je.. rai's gf.. ahahaha.. eh tak!.. dia ramai scandal kpop ni.. ahahhaa kpop ye... bukan scandal pape ahahaha.. if you guys proud to have many bias ke boyfriend ke.. wait for her to said " alah.. kau x tau aku ade 967 scandal" actually number tu dia akan cakap sendiri nanti dengan lancarnye.. ahahhaa.. and the way she's running.. make us feel that it's really funny and cute at the same time.. and.. GWS waa.. love u yang.. okeh.. isma is girl who wearing a pair of spectacles..her word.. jenis lepas.. so.. berani lah buat dia marah.. then u will have her powerful words.. budak musically ni.. dah maju wooo.. ahaha.. first time i met her was the day that i have to come home with ustazah zahurin who is her mom and i have to wait for my mom at her house.. kiteorang kenal kenal.. then tanye pasal studies then gelak2.. tuptup rapat dah.. ahahaha... mata dia kalau jeling.. foah.. jelingan maut kau... ehehe.. one thing i love about her is she like to speak english.. she loves to try speak in english.. thats why i salute her.. so isma stay funny and stay by my side always k? anis kurnis.. hoho.. she also wearing a pair of spectacles.. she is the most smartest among us.. class first katekan.. wawa's bae.. kalau boleh masukkan voice kat sini dah lame aku ajuk care dia panggil kiteorang kalau kiteorang majok ngan dia ke ape.. first met at sam10... our school.. time form 1.. wawa kenalkan.. i love her.. thats all i can say about u.. the way she's laughing.. the way she's mad with us.. the way she's calling us when we are mad at her.. her lips! foah.. ahahhaa.. and dia jenis pembersih.. bile nampak something kotor kat tudung mula lah dia tanye macam mane boleh kotor lah ape la.. macam kiteorang tau.. ahhaha.. x pe nis... thats why we love u muahhh.. qaisara.. first met at SRADN gak.. she is the most cutest in our group.. gws qai.. dia kalau marah.. haaa.. siap kau.. the way she laugh omg met my heart melts.. ahahah.. rai selalu kene marah dengan qai ni.. ahahah since the day that rai cakap qai kene tinggal bas ke ape ntah.. ahahaha.. sejak tu dia geramm je ngan rai ni.. ahaha.. sabo je lah rai... but the way she mad.. i dont know but i dont feel scared at all but i feel it is very cute!.. trust me... kalau korang dengar care dia marah.. korang akan gelak.. ahaha.. i love to hug her.. and selfie with her.. cause she loves to smile ^^.. love u muahhh.. raijin and nadirah... finally.. dua dua ni boyish .. masing2 suke warna hitam... aku x berani kacau dua orang ni bile dorang badmood.. foah.. salah cakap aje kene sembur.. nadirah.. actually ah jujur la.. senanye dia ni ayu ! AHAHAHAHAH.. she is a prefect.. dia kalau majok susah nak pujuk.. kate je boyish.. tapi majok macam girl gak.. eh kau memang girl pon ahahahah.. rahil.. acah siyes.. that time when kiteorang tunggu mak ayah amik dari sekolah.. kiteorang cabar dia wat siyes for 2 minutes.. dia terus buat muka cam "eh aku boleh buat siyes jap" then she closed her eyes and betulkan her sit position and put one of her hand kat dia nye dagu.. aku nyampah tengok ahahahahahha.. terus aku cakap "blah ah kau" terus dia gelak ahahahahaha... adoiyaii lawak do hari tu memang gelak jeee.. but dia memang boleh serious.. bile time belajar.. dia memang fokus betul2.. dia ni power sejarah.. haa.. okeh korang dua.. saba ye dengan kate kate ni sebab kau akan rase geli kejap.. love u too soo muchh.. and i treasure u guys soo much.. may Allah bless our friendship.. goodluck for PAT.. muahhh..
-xoxo D
ronin squad.. formed since last year.. from the left nukman,nadzmi,syafiq,me,rahil.. okeyh i know im a little bit over in that picture.. pfftt.. this picture was taken when err ade one event tu.. what the meaning of ronin? actually it is gabungan for our name..
R= raijin (rahil) O= oren (syafiq) N= nuk (nukman) I=insomnia (me) N= nadzmi.. okeyh.. u guys must be weird why syafiq's nickname is oren right? okeh let me tell you a history about it.. ceh.. panggilan "oren" tu terjadi because of one day time form 1.. we want to discuss about jamuan.. then nak panggil name dia but kiteorang lupe.. time tu kiteorang pakai baju koko.. as u can see in that picture.. yang warna oren tu baju koko kiteorang.. so rahil pon panggil "weh oren" and x sangka dia pandang.. so bermulalah panggilan oren tu kat dia.. raijin lak name tu diberi oleh syafiq.. because of me pulak.. that time i feel lazy to call her rahil.. so i just called her "rai sini jap" since that semua panggil dia rai.. and syafiq ni otaku.. and minat anime punye orang.. so mula lah dia cipta name raijin tu.. rai in japanese means thunder.. petir.. yeah.. insomnia biaselah.. x leh tido.. susah tido.. actually i got many nickname.. santa claus because i always said "hoho".. baby batuk makan popcorn because dorang gi edit my picture aku pegang popcorn.. pahtu ape ntah yang membuatkan dorang cakap batuk.. aku lupe ahahaha.. baby tu because of my nickname at home.. and my family called me baby.. so yeah.. i still feel sad cause u guys can't attend my birthday party that day.. huhuh.. but! thanks to nuk.. he gave me such a beautiful shoes.. but.. terlebih size lak x pe lah.. still lawaaa.. thanks dude! ^^.. haa yang lain mane present aku.. ahahahha.. jkjk.. oh.. we have a tradition.. for our squad lah.. it's like a family.. syafiq we called him along because he is the eldest among us.. and also.. the elder can bully the younger.. bukanlah buli teterok pon.. its just suh belikan itu ini je.. tu pon kalau terserempak.. and ade satu mase kiteorang tukar pulak.. the youngest can bully back.. pfftt.. aku kene buli ngan dak nadzmi tuh since he is the youngest.. im second last and nuk is third last.. our annyversary is on february if im not mistaken.. wow panjang dah.. kui3.. btw.. thanks guys for everything.. may Allah bless our friendship.. goodluck for PAT.. i love u guys.. and thanks for making me happy when im in a badmood..
-xoxo D
sff... group formed since 2013.. farah adiba.. humaira safiyyah.. fatimah zahraa.. mawaddah madihah... shaheera dhania.. i knew farah since standard 1.. humaira since standard 3.. mawaddah and fatimah since standard 5... even sometimes there will be a fight but we still together no matter what.. this picture is when im celebrating my 14's birthday.. they said that they can't come cause of transportation.. but then suddenly my cousin said some girls at outside are waiting for me.. so i thought that there are the girls that i invited too.. but then suddenly they said "SUPRISE!!" and i was really really shocked about it.. and maira brought some balloons.. then they sang happy birthday's song for me.. and they gave me presents.. first girl that i hugged that time was farah.. i almost crying that time.. but.. because of the makeup that my aunt put on.. x jadilah nak nangis ahahahha.. i really really treasure them.. so much.. even we were not in the same school anymore.. but it doens't mean that lost contact terus.. we still keep in touch.. now susah sikit nak jumpe mawaddah and farah since dorang asrama.. maira and timah bukan asrama but still susah jumpe gak.. but.. once jumpe.. habihlah dunia.. eceh.. anyway.. thanks girls for everything.. may Allah bless our friendship.. i love u all.. like my own siblings..
-xoxo D
now at 2:42 pm im writing about chances and regret.. u guys mesti pernah regret for somethings right? me? of course I do.. there's so much regret that i have in my life.. i regret for changing school.. i regret for not exercising.. i regret for not studying well.. banyak lagi lah.. but.. i realized.. i will be more regret if i didn't take the chance.. if im not changing school.. i might dont know anyone.. i might dont know how to communicate with someone that not even my race.. i might not able to make new wonderful friends like them.. okeyh about that exercise thing.. err.. i need to be exercise.. if im not.. i will be more fattier than i am now.. uhuhu.. but yeah.. everything happens because there is a reason behind that.. or.. need to do something about it.. like if i dont exercise.. i will be fat so i have to do it.. if im not study.. i will be a fail person.. so i have to study no matter what.. and trust me... all the effort that u do.. it will give a beautiful result.. and u will never regret it.. so take a chance while u still have it... once u didn't take the chances that u have.. u will regret it till the end of your life..
-xoxo D
